Hi Dear friend,

Today, as I read our fellow MSian Rashmi ji's post,(https://mouthshut.com/diary/aaacltnqs/Lifes-Like-that) I was moved. It was simple but well written.

Everybody has a passion. They wanted to chase their dreams. If you ask a child "wat do u want to become in life?" they say a Doctor or an Engineer. But how many land up realizing their childhood dreams? Not many. It is not because they are not good at academics. But there may be "N"number of reasons personally and academically which hinders their performance and eventually they end giving up!!

Such kind of stuff happened happened in my life too. My elder brother, who is by far intelligent than I by all means, did a great sacrifice for me. Since childhood, he used to say my mom and dad that he wants to become an Engineer. I never had such stuff in my mind. I was okay with anything. He scored very well in his 12th Grade Exams and also in his Engineering entrance. His score was very competitive. Sadly, his score got him only a paid seat. We were from a middle class family and the fees that was to be paid was huge for us then. My mom and dad said that it was difficult to mobilize. He said "No worries dad n mom. If not me, let Naren do it. I understand that it will be expensive for you to manage fees for both of us." He ended his dream that was understandably painful.

Couple of years passed, it was my turn and I too did fare well in academic exams but got a less score in entrance, ending up in a paid seat again. But this time my parents thought that at least one should be an Engineer in our family and took a plunge by taking loans etc. I became the first person in our family to attend the Engineering college. My Father and Mother used to feel proud but at the same time sad for my brother. He was matured enough and was into his BBA degree with a great interest.

Tragedy struck our family as my Father passed away the same year without even seeing even one of my exams(Semester) score. I was 17 then and was the biggest blow ever for our family. My Brother was in the final year of his BBA degree. My mom was the bread winner for our family. I, who was very playful, started to realize that it was very important for me to perform well in exams and concentrate only on that.

3Years passed, my brother got a job and already had 2years of work experience and I graduated. My mom felt happy that she has done a good job by bringing up two sons after her husband's demise.

Even 12 years later, I at times cry to myself thinking about the sacrifice my Brother did & losing my dad. All those painful stuff does have a profound impact.

I say my wife that wat I am today is because of my Brother. I owe him all the success that I have had. Though my mom and dad are the best part in my life, I love my brother a lot that we are like good friends. Even today what ever decisions I take, I consult my Brother before I do that.

Today, both my brother n me are happy taking care of our mom happily. But one thing which we feel all times is "Oh god, why did u do this to us? Life is good but sans dad wat we'll do?"

Wish he were here today and made me stop writing this :(

Thanks for reading.

Narender.E.S.