Why is it that this anger over that bast&*$ is not leaving my head? Its killing me day by day. It was my fault that I put trust on him. It was my fault that I put so much on stake. It was my fault that I did not inquire about him. It was my fault that I shared with him so much of my life. It was my fault that I surrendered.. Then why am I angry on him? The bigegst joke is that he is a philanthropist? Ha ha ha.. Not able to digest till date..

Sh!t happens at times and I know it very well.. The world was never a bed of roses and I never seem to bother about bad things.. This time why am I putting so much of my time and energy on negative thoughts of revenge and anger for him. May be somewhere I do feel guilty for opening my heart to him. he has insulted my feelings. Ok. So what.. not a big deal.. happens to many people..I know.. BUT NOT TO ME. I am not made for such cheap people. How come I fell into that trap.. and fell like hell.. that am not able to bounce back ..even if I try.. I fall again.. I worry if some diseases must be manifesting inside..

Will this anger eat me one day?