The big thud of thunder just made the night more scary, that made my grandson cry. He started to be scared on what's happening to us. So I kept reassuring him that we will be alright, while my grand daughter was quiet but observing what's going on.

I was already beginning to lost my balance as the water was already getting deep, almost half below my knees, because the heavy rain kept pouring. I almost think of quitting, but I remembered, what if- hope might be just some meters away or some minutes away that someone will see and understand my situation? And if I'll give up, my family doesn't know where I am. And my two grandchildren are still small to protect or help me. My body was weak, but my spirit and will to survive was strong for the sake of my two grand kids.

I whispered a prayer to God to send someone to help us. After about 5 taxi drivers I beg to bring me to hospital, no one responded. They reasoned out that they were under contract and just waiting for their passengers. Then there was a man, (maybe he is a barker) who asked the other driver if he would accept if I'll get his taxi. Maybe he'd been listening to me as I plead the other drivers that I'll pay no matter how much as long as we will dropped my grand kids at home and then proceed to Orthopedic hospital so my children will be with me. After knowing my condition, he brought me home and then to hospital.

'Twas already early morning when the doctor suggested that I will go home. He put some some bondage and gave me medicine for pain. I was shocked to know that I'll go home, despite my situation. He said that there are plenty of patients around and I will only get upset to see how serious they are and it wont help me at all. So I asked him if I don't need operation, he told me that operation will only make it worst. I will be prone to infections besides its being expensive he said. And after two years, I will be operated again to get the steel that will be pinned on both my bones on the right clavicle, if I'll insist on the operation. Since I wanted to rest longer, I decided not to argue with him anymore. What's important a physician have examined already my situation, so maybe its okay to go home.

The next day, I was only lying on bed and taking pain killer medicine. I have this idea of, "What if my shoulder will not get healed?" I cant imagine having my right clavicle falling down. So I decided to asked for a 2nd opinion of other doctors in other hospitals after a week that I feel better. I only get relieved when after talking to four(4 surgeon) physicians, they all have one thing in common/ suggestions and that is- no operation at all. After explaining to me the pros and cons, I get satisfied and decided that not to be operated anymore..

I thank God that my recovery was fast but it took me almost a year wearing those butterfly bondage on my back and shoulder to maintain my posture level to the other shoulder. At least I realized that even though my shoulder is broken inside, but my body is still whole/complete. I still have eyes that I can see; feet that I can still walk: both hands that I can still hold or hug; ear that I can still hear and presence of mind that I can still think. I still have lots of blessings to thank God despite my broken clavicle.

Then I think back of Black Kitty and why cat has nine lives so they say, and why man just have one? But no matter if its fact( although I believe it's myth) the truth remains that, poor Kitty died after few minutes and was never brought back to life.

And as I compared that incident in my life, I learned one lesson on that accident that, "Death is just a split seconds away if you're bound to die, but no matter how you want to end up your life(commit suicide)- you can cheat death if your time has not come yet." My life had been in danger in some instances, but God just give me enough reasons to live. Maybe I have to fulfill some task that has not come yet. But then, whatever it is, I just pray that God will never leave me in my trying times. Because no matter how you try, if God is not with you, the more life will be harder. So, lets make our life beautiful as much as possible, lets count our blessings and not what we are missing, as they say. Lets face our past without regret, today is a new day, give your best so when tomorrow comes, you will be remembered of your good deeds. Think of how many people will feel a lasting loss when you're gone. What will matter is not anymore what you treasure but how your love ones treasured you when you're gone forever.

God bless everyone.

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