Normally I don’t switch off my mobile because of some special reasons, but despite knowing that I have classes on early 7 am on college, I didn’t thought necessary to receive any alarm on my phone. It was not because I was tired due to my presence in last night whole night prayer fellowship, but my heart was ordering me to switch off my mobile. So, without any hesitation I had switched off my mobile on the early 7 pm yesterday and I arranged my bed sheet very early of my regular time on 10 pm.

I wanted to sleep, I wanted to give a normal blood pressure as well as good rest to my body. Even making my eyes retina closed for continuous half hours, my mind was not ready to go in that imaginary world of dream where I used to wait for my Aakriti…

Oh, yeah introducing you about Aakriti, she is one of the best friends that I have got in my life; She is one who turns every of my nightmares into the joyous reconciliation. (I shall tell any other day about Aakriti)

It was already mid-night and still no signs of any sleepiness on my body. I think my friends are already trying to connect me through phone to wish me on my happiest day. But the phone is off… it’s sure my friends are going to shout me so much as they meet me any other day. But I hope they will understand me why I am trying to bring loneliness even on day of my 21st birthday.

I don’t know I am still hoping that something miracle will happen and I will get her call by tomorrow morning. Perhaps I wanted to forget her, but the more I try to forget, I get her closer to my heart.

It has been about six months that she hasn’t replied any of my text messages, or any of my mails. Whenever I try to call her, she often disconnects the call and if I try from something unknown number, she disconnects the call after listening my voice…

The every time some sms or some call comes in my phone, I used to get excited that if she is the same one who is calling me now? But that excitement always used to send me in the world of disappointment.

Perhaps I never wanted her again in my life to come, But why I am switching off my number, it has been only fifteen days since I changed my cell number and I haven’t send any sms to her from this number in last fifteen days. So that girl who never was in contact since last 6 months, how can I expect that she will call me in my birthday…? But who knows, she may have taken cell number from my college friends too!

I wanted to listen the Nepali song by sanjay sherestha which English meaning explains “love, oh my love, when shall we meet again?” but my mobile is switched off…

Anyway, I managed to sleep. But I wake up frequently in every half an hour. I looked towards my hand watch which I had kept on my table. The sparkling radium showed that its 5.30 am. Oh, my practical classes will start from 7 am, and I have to reach their strictly on 7 am. So don’t want to take any risk. I went for bath, and I myself prepared tea. But truly, I never felt like drinking even a drop of tea today.

I switched on my mobile. There were 10 new sms. I wish may one of the sms be by her. Some message saying,

“happy returns of the day karan….”

“Karan, you switched your number... Happy birthday to you…”

“Karan, fearing for today trip? We are never leaving you buddy, happy birthday...”

But I never find that one which I was browsing. I hurried towards my college….

There also my friends were no late to wish me “happy birthday”

But I was still missing someone; the reason is perhaps I myself can’t stop from missing that sweet friend who has been one of the integral parts of my heart.

I then remembered, “Better than losing a relation, I would be happy to lose my pride and get the relation continued. I thought to send a sms to her thinking at least I shall not miss her so much…

I composed like this, “dear friend, you know it’s today my birthday… I am getting the sweet wishes from everyone of my friend, but still I am not feeling the day complete. I don’t know why I am missing you so much, why I am still waiting for your call or sms? Yeah, I wanted to spend my birthday with you because you were one of the special among special, and perhaps that may be impossible from every aspects. Missing you so much… “

Though my physical attention was there in theory class, but my spirit was waiting for her reply

In this interval, I don’t know why I am not able to realize the something truth of reality and my every sense organ are insulated which is stopping me to hear the message from my loving friend…

And still my mind and brain was waiting for her message, no matter even if that message be good bye message or whatever that be… truly, I was waiting for her message