~~Her last message~~ part~~ two

continued of earlier post:-

https://mouthshut.com/diary/gfcimsqpo/her-last-message-part-1

After my theory class concluded, we friend of our group in our class were supposed to go to “Gate of India”, it was pre-planned activities to be celebrated, but my friend cancelled those trips because they were saying me that they never felt as today is my birthday.

“karan, what’s wrong with you? Why you making yourself so lonely even in day of your birthday?”

I had to replied, “no yaar, there is no such thing, If there would have been anything, I would have shared it with you people here…”

A voice from one friend came, “perhaps waiting for someone special wishes, is it karan?”

Frankly saying, I even didn’t recognize who was saying that? Because I was already lost in my own world.

Adding the expression of shyness in my face, I just kept quiet. But in this moment, more than a smile, I had the sign of heavy disappointment marked in my heart and the same was reflected on my face. I was just missing her presence so much… I cant express myself.

Thanking those all friends for canceling journey to ‘Gate of India’ I paved towards my home.

There everyone was waiting for me for lunch. Going to bathroom, what I could do is only wetting my body, could give no refreshment to my tired mind.

Mum invited me for lunch, but I lied her “No mum, I already had my lunch with my friend”

Stupid me! How can I lie my mum, she understands me everything even though I don’t speak. Mum replied on her own way, “Ok, we won’t force you. Have some rest.”

“But listen Karan, had you messaged her?”

I was surprised how my mum got to know this thing also, but pretending that I have understood nothing, I replied, “who is that ‘her’ mum?”

“Karan, you know that whom I am talking about, just reply me ‘yes’ or ‘no’

I gave her affirmative answer by moving my head.

“listen Karan, she has her own life and you have your own… you cant expect to be anyone closer and the same good as they are for you, she had something her own life and you should accept this reality that you mean nothing more than a stranger for her…”

Exactly, this is the fact which I never accepted in my life. From the very early days of our introduction, although I learn many thing from her few words, I was never closer to her… and this is really too much to expect something from her. Perhaps it is the time to accept the reality which I never accepted…

We had the rice pudding ( khir ) as our dinner, because having ‘khir’ as dinner in birthday evening is the practiced tradition of our family since I know myself…

After dinner, I turned on my computer to check out mails if anything is new there…

As soon as I opened my Gmail inbox, I got a new reason to smile…

One new mail from Nisha Sharma…

“Hey Karan, really sorry for not able to wish you personally through my voice… I hope you are not so much angry on me… messaging just to wish you “happy birthday and many many happy returns of the day..

Dear Karan, everyone has their own life and because of having such a large friend circle, I myself cant fulfill expectation from everyone… I want you to live your own life from today and start focusing on your dream and your personal life…. Thanks for giving such a value in your life… Be always smiling…”

But the one thing I noticed in this mail is that it was not from her usual id which she used to send before six months ago…

I instantly replied,

“Nisha, you have a new email id and you never informed me before, anyway thanks for such a kind wish… I am feeling much better now…”

It took not more than 5 minutes for reply message to arrive,

“Yeah, this is my new id; I have deleted my all earlier id… nice to know you are feeling good…

Now no more message please…..”

This mail made me feel as if I have fallen down from a roof of tall building…

Thanks that my today’s birthday concluded with her sweet wishes which I was waiting from the very morning…

Definitely, a sentence ‘now no more message please…’ might be her last message, still she shall be sitting inside my heart with the same respect, same love and same care…

Her that mail might had transported the ‘birthday wishes’, but still there are many more question in my mind, and I would like to ask these question with any of one among ‘Nisha or Destiny’.

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