She asked Do you still love me?

Did I ,my thoughts went back by five years.I was a trainee software engineer and she was the testing lead and she was very beautiful.I had taken an instant liking for her.She was my senior both in age as well as position and it seemed that she had a thing for me as none of my modules went through in first iteration and she personally wrote glowing remarks on the tracker. I was not angry and it would not have helped as she was very senior.One day I found her alone taking a walk after lunch.So I tagged along and said I am Saurabh.She said I know and started telling me,'You know what your problem is ,you have no clue about user interface and it will be better if you never work on client side programming'.I said I will remember that but I have not come for that ,I really like you and will you come with me for dinner some day.She stared at me for a few seconds and said also remember to refer to psychiatrist,it will help.

Well I believe in persistence and everyday after lunch I started walking with her initially she made it clear that I can walk with her but not a single word or reference about that incident. It took a long time I believe three weeks of half an hour walk and brain washing every weekday, for her to soften a bit.And she said 'All right lets go for lunch this Saturday but remember one thing nothing is going to come out of it and no more walks.' So I took her for lunch ,then for a movie and then to juhu beach. She was it seems enjoying it all and was cutting jokes on my user interface sense and I on her remarks on traker. Neither of it was funny but somehow we were laughing and enjoying it.After a while she said lets be practical I like your company and we can continue like this but one thing should be clear that there is no hope for us.Do you want to continue or wont it be better that we end it with real good memories.I opted to continue.

She made the rules clear, no unofficial talks in office , She would ping me before leaving and if I can join her I will ping her back on messenger.I will start after fifteen minute and would meet her at a distant place.And from there we would decide further.Sometimes I just escorted her to her station which was on other route.It was going well though there were some hiccups like one day on train we met another colleague of ours and she asked me where are you going so I said to friend's place.So we three got down and she offered to me 'Come I will drop you there in auto your destination is on my way'.And I went forty rupee distance on that rainy night just to be sure.I knew that if this happens again it wont look like coincidence any more.And it happened again and this time with an understanding in her eyes she asked 'Again to your friend's place ?'.I said yup.She offered me lift again and I got a feeling that maybe she is one of those who are really innocent.So went by auto and she stopped the auto infront of a restaurant and said lets have some tea.I didnt had much of a choice so I followed her.With tea she started,you are being used .You are very sweet and have no clue.I smiled she must be having catract, me sweet.I said I like being used and if a single word got out I would misuse and abuse her.She shouted 'You fool she is getting engaged next month.'

That came as a shock,she had not told anything.I asked her and she agreed and said I had told you in the beginning itself.Yup,I agreed but cannot we marry as I love her so much.She said 'No because in life you need money and your pay is not enough'. We will work hard,I countered .She replied ,I dont have to.I understood it was a hopeless situation.So I said fine but always remember I love you.She said I also love you.

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