’’The raindrops shot down as if they never saw earth. They shot hard on the surface of the dry land. The thirst was unquenchable as I sat at the seaface. The water hitting hard on the rocks trying to wash away the white salt on the black rocks but degrading them even further. A man who has lost something he tressured. What does he do other than thinking about these rocks at this hour of a rainy day when everyone is seeking shelter below something or the other except a few urchin children dancing happily in the rains. Weren’t they happier than me? To enjoy life as it comes. Yes, life comes like the rains as if it has never seen a human being. It showers joy as it comes unknown of the future.
I was shivering with cold. My jaws aching as my teeth collided. I never tried to stop them. My leather shoes gave a rotten feel. It was all going wild in my brains. The rain hitting the grounds, the wet hat on my wet head, the water all over my body, the sound of my teeth as they shivered, the sound of the waters hitting the rocks trying to wash away it’s own sin and the vehicles passing by in full throttle, which I had not even noticed all this while. The beggars had already started playing again. It showed how the earth rotates n’ revolves irrespective to what happens on it.’’
(Courtesy: My Depressed Times by Samir)
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Guys, that’s how I win over my moments of depression. Whenever you feel like crying, never cry.Just open a notepad and jot down your deepest feelings, u feel at that very moment. It’s magical. It’s like telling a friend what happened throughout the day. I wrote the above one when I was in the most depressed times of my life. You guys will laugh at this but you will also agree that everyone goes through this phase in his/her life. We call it ’First Love’ It kills you when it shatters like a broken dream.
Depression is something which comes naturally whenever someone is going through a low phase in his/her life. You cannot stop it, but yes you can slow it down by concentrating on something else, thus letting the issue that was harrasing you stay alone for a while. As per my experiences, matters get solved by themselves once they are left alone. You can do whatever you can with a calm state of mind. One more thing that helps is telling a friend you believe in the most the state of your mind. If he/she is a true friend, he will surely help you get out of your depression. Yes, but take care that your words are falling on the right ears. A person who doesn’t understand you can make matters worse, by just overlistening or making fun of your problems. These things happen. One of my freinds was really upset that day. He came from college after having a fight with his best friend. In the fight his spectacles broke. And more than the fight, he was worried about his spectacles. He came home and told us what happened. We were in a boogie mood. One of our freinds started teasing him. This made him all the more angry which led him in another fight of his day. So that happens as we just overlook a person’s state of mind. So that is the reason I chose a notepad over my other freinds. It is not like I don’t have good friends. But as we know, where life is going these days. Everyone has his own problems to deal with. By the time you tell someone your problems, it is not necessary the other person is in the state of mind to listen to you. Maybe he is going through another one of his/her depressing day.
The family forms the most effective surrounding in increasing or decreaing your depression. It is the atmosphere they create that helps a member recover from the deep cave of depression. What I do is tell my horrifying experiences of the day to my mom. And she helps me a lot. But again this cannot be always expected. Who knows what atmosphere awaits you at home, by the time you reach home. Maybe you need to put aside your worries to help your family come out of another problem. This was happened with myself. I had a truely horrid day at work. One of the servers at my workplace was down and I wasn’t getting the way of making it work in any possible way. The whole day I sat in front of the server trying to install an operating system, By evening one of the high officials waited right outside the server room for the verdict. I faced the music, while this old guy was in no mood of hearing to my technical reasons. After torturing me for nearly an hour, he went home and hopefully must have taken a nice nap. Here I waited for the whole night and made the server up and working. It was in the morning that I could go home. I reached here just to find that my grandpa had fallen down while trying to get up from the bed at night and was severly injured. Now it was my time to put aside all my worries and help my grandpa recover as soon as possible.
Depression can be called a game which our own mind plays with us. It demands our compromise to events, which we don’t enjoy but hate every moment of it. Suddenly everything seems hopeless, the same way as everything seems beautiful in love. The result of this game can be over-reaction, fights, overlooking your loved ones and their problems which leads to more problems, etc, etc... It is upon us how we play it. Although everyone has his/her own way of dealing with depression, the only way I see to come out of these horrifying moments is communication and in some cases fast decisions which need to be correct at any cost.
Another one of the communications, I made with my best friend (notepad) is as follows,
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People abuse.
People blame.
People shout.
People hate.
All this can be taken in untill you watch people laughing at you when you are in trouble.
But then hope is not to be lost over such stupid people.
You fight and win and then be ready to hear from these same people say ’’No big deal’’
(Courtesy: My Depressed Times by Samir)
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