It is a strange phenomenon that as I open the page of my Word sheet and stare at this blank screen in front of me I have no idea what is going to transpire, what will be the context of my writing and what if ever, shall I be able to put anything down which could be of interest to all of you, who, willingly and with a bit of anticipation, have opened up my blog. I do not think or despair or work my mind into a subject. I just stare and wait, as I do now and something shall materialize, hopefully.

So far, it’s a blank mind and a blank page…

It’s been a while since I communicated with any one …in any real sense! Henceforth, I’d try to write to you as often as I have access to internet and more importantly, to my inner self. Haven’t you noticed that in our busy lives of today…we hardly ever communicate with our own selves…forget about communication with each other?! The days move so fast that the weeks and months register themselves in just a blur. I hardly stop feeling happy with myself having connected to any one real well in a conversation and I suddenly feel that that happened a week ago and I again need to repeat the performance!

I have a long list of wishes that you can grant to me….and I am going to write at least three of them down…not with the hope that you’d fulfill them, but just to make this thing a bit interesting!!!

Let us see how many wishes can I come up with and how many of them can actually be fulfilled!!!! First of all, I would wish to roll back time and erase all the past mistakes…I would willingly trade all my other wishes that are to follow with the fulfillment of just this one! I would not elaborate on this further, except to say that given an opportunity, I would not trust anyone to shield or protect me and my relationships from the charms of other materialistic things that made all of you forget the bond we shared!!! During the course of my life and in pursuit of happiness what I lost are relations. Losing anything and all associated frustrations and expectations of youth seem so trivial now…but that is what one calls the journey of life.

My second wish is a bit more practical……you see. I would love a big Farmhouse somewhere very close to Delhi ……the one that can take me back to my childhood in Ranchi where I lived in a small house but sprawling wilderness around.Ofcourse don’t want the sufferings of those days but only peace that I want to feel sitting in the sun doing nothing. Ha, Ha...and I would be in that farmhouse everyday every morning with no worries and questions asked.

Well, my third wish is to be with all I love…. to see them everyday….or every week at least…to not to have to depend on fate to make me see them again..! Whenever someone close goes away…I am at a loss…..not knowing when and if, I would ever see them again!! To be frank and honest I want to see my father again…speak to him for once …..apologize to him ……fulfill all his wishes …..buy him a mobile phone….take him to a good hospital…and of course a nice good pair of shoes for him…….My God today I understand my fetish for shoes….I buy a pair almost every week!!!! He wanted to wear a nice pair of shoes for Mona’s wedding. Couldn’t make him wear one.

I might even stop counting the moments and enjoy myself if I know that I am to see everyone again shortly…just the way it used to be!!!

My quota of three wishes is up but what is the harm in pushing this on further?? I mean there is no "Genie" in here that would object to the extra workload. But will pen down all other wishes later.

I Know I have taken up enough time of such a busy person as you…You probably have ten tasks at hand waiting for your attention while you are wasting your time reading stupid words punched in by me!!! I’d be writing to you again…a small one tomorrow morning. And you can bet that it would be a bit more sensible than this effort of mine!...You are at complete liberty to either read this and respond by punching in a few words yourself or else avoid this like a “swineflu” patient. I, on my part, would be writing to you again….

Take care meanwhile…Shweta