Ppl fall in love... ders never been a specific reason fr dat... d tym I broke off, I decided never 2 get bak into all dis mess again!!! All dis started frm a simple frndship. But his intention was always to be in a relationship wid me (dat is wat he said) and I thot of him as my best frnd always... But wen he asked me out, I cudnt say no (coz he was my best frnd, n I din want 2 hurt him). V gelled alot so der was anyway no prob. So v got into a relationship, went out... But later on he din hv much tym fr me... Initially we used to be on sms fr d whole day but later on I started being satisfied wid a single call in a whole day. I waited patiently thinkin dat it was my misconception, my misunderstanding; but den it became more n more clear dat he actually din hv tym fr me... He was always busy wid his frnds, his college or sum or d oda reason. Finally aftr waitin fr few months, v broke off!!!

But it was very tough... I thot I lost my best frnd also. I missed him alot but now it was of no use (dat is wat I thot) I was very upset. N was not even able 2 cope up. Coz he was my best frnd and I was not able to share dat wid any1.

It wasnt intentional but one fine day, v started talkin again, it was by coincidence. But I loved it. V den decided 2 b frnds again. I agreed 2 it (coz anyway I was missin my best frnd n gettin him bak was d bestest thing). V wer again bak 2 square one. V started roamin around, went fr picnic, we chit chatted fr hours. It was same as it had been b4 wen v wer frnds. He had found a galfrnd by then. He as usual shared evrything wid me. I felt bad (actually very bad). I used to cry alot. But den I was happy also. Coz he was bak wid me (being frnds again was the least I expected n I got dat). After few days, der was sum prob wid his gal frnd and she cudnt give him tym. It was d tym wen he got 2 knw how I felt wen he did d same 2 me. D clashes between dem increased and she broke up wid him. Dis tym he was also very sad, very upset. V shared. I used to lecture him fr long hours. Maybe he felt I supported him or maybe he felt I din support him. He was on a job by now. N was busy too. He started forgetting her. But maybe he was sad inside, maybe he was nt completely out of it.

Den once he himself planned fr an overnight picnic. N v went fr it wid our group of frnds. N dat was d tym wen v both sat together till late nite. V shared watevr v felt, watevr v thot n confessed watevr v felt fr each oda aftr our break up. Bein honest, I told him dat I still miss him n I luv him. He too said dat he had been missin me alot. N felt the luv fr me. He gave me d expalnation also. I knew watevr he said was geniune. I was satisfied wid watevr explanation he gave me. Dat was d tym, wen v both again decided 2 get bak, to patch up. I dnt knw whether d decision was right or not (coz I was still doubtful, if he was out of his ex-gf's tragedy) but dis tym I din wanted 2 let him go... Initially I said yes to his proposal coz I din wanted 2 lose my best frnd... But dis tym I patched up again wid d same guy coz I loved him. D tym v broke off, I undrstud how much I loved him. N I din wanted 2 make d same mistake again of losin him.

Even now d situation is same. He still doesnt hv tym fr me. Dis tym d situation is worst dan last tym. V dnt even talk fr 2-3 days. Dis tym hes got diff reason. But its ok. Last tym I din keep patience, dis tym m nt goin 2 do dat. I hv 2 b patient n i'll keep d patience.

Losing him was d biggest mistake n I wnt commit it again. I have heard it frm so many ppl dat "best frnd shud nevr b ur boy/gal frnd", "u shud nevr patch up wid a guy u hv once broke off wid." D situation is worst dan b4 regarding d tym which he doesnt hv fr me. But I still dnt regret my decision. He bein wid me mks me feel secure. I dnt want him 2 b wid me physically, but mentally knwing dat hes der is enuf fr me.

1st tym I said yes coz I din wanted 2 lose his frndshp, but now I said yes coz "DIS TYM M IN LOVE!!!!" <3