He reached hastily into his pocket. The bum had stopped him and
asked for a dime, then had gone on talking, as if to kill that moment
and postpone the problem of the next. Pleas for dimes were so
frequent in the streets these days that it was not necessary to listen to
explanations, and he had no desire to hear the details of this bum's
particular despair.
"Go get your cup of coffee," he said, handing the dime to the
shadow that had no face.
"Thank you, sir," said the voice, without interest, and the face
leaned forward for a moment. The face was wind-browned, cut by
lines of weariness and cynical resignation; the eyes were intelligent.
Eddie Willers walked on, wondering why he always felt it at this
time of day, this sense of dread without reason. No, he thought, not
dread, there's nothing to fear: just an immense, diffused
apprehension, with no source or object. He had become accustomed
to the feeling, but he could find no explanation for it; yet the bum
had spoken as if he knew that Eddie felt it, as if he thought that one
should feel it, and more: as if he knew the reason.
Eddie Willers pulled his shoulders straight, in conscientious selfdiscipline.
He had to stop this, he thought; he was beginning to
imagine things. Had he always felt it? He was thirty-two years old.
He tried to think back. No, he hadn't; but he could not remember
when it had started