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(part-3)

In matter of conversation, I might had silenced many examiner in the time of viva, but this time it was black beauty who had sealed my leaps and that is why I never had a single conversation or nor even I dared to smile in front of her. Whenever she used to pass nearby me, for the moment, my heart would stop beating for a while and many times I had lost on her twinkling lips... Yeah, I wish I could share all this to her, but as an individual and as a youth, I have my own responsibility and I too had a very special promise given to somebody of reaching the destination on time.

I believed on praying, but till that day I didn’t asked Neha even a single time with my lord. And I too had decided not to ask her for me ever again. Because I know, for somebody like Neha, spending life with me, it will be a truly difficult…

Then a time came where I didn’t found Neha in the entire college for full seven days… First day, I thought Neha had bunked the college, second day I thought she must be busy, third day I thought maybe she is out of station but from fourth day onwards I started getting worried. I worried if her health is really fine or not! I was praying with my god for her safe health, but still I never requested in my praying ”Neha as my girl friend in my life.” I just wanted to know her health status, but whom should I ask about her!

Truly saying, her voice had irritated me lot, but this time I was dying to listen from her. I used to run far away every time she used to pass through my way, but this time I was missing her so much. I hate myself on loving her but I used to love to love her lot.

Finally I was happy to see this black beauty once again in college canteen in eight day. I had missed her so badly in these eight day that I just wanted to sit in front of her and talk, talk and talk. But I was not successful again, because I never wanted her to get a single hint of my one sided love towards her. I thanked my almighty for making her safe and took a long breath of relief.

Once again in physics lab, it was a time of demonstration and skill experiment, I found her. This time it was a brownish color classical dress, Shining Black polished finger’s nail, silver color of sandal had added beauty in the physics lab.

From the discussion group of girls in physics lab, I got to know that few of them were invited by Neha. Although I was not among the invited people, I was desperate to find out what is the celebration about. From one of my very close friend, I found she was sharing that happiness on the occasion of her Engagement ceremony which she recently had…, I got to know that “her engagement was held just before few days ago” a great shock! Yes, she had a beautiful diamond ring worn in her finger and it was the first time I had seen in her hand which confirmed that she has entered into the new phase of life…

Though before day I never had any hope of getting her in my life, I felt like another biggest dream has been rejected by proprietor of Destiny Enterprises. My mind was paralyzed, letting me think no any else, but only and only her. I imagined what could I have done for that girl. Definitely, I regretted for not keeping the wishes of getting her in my praying. Although my love for that girl was never so serious, I got scared of coming future.

For the sake of her company, this time I was even ready to forget my love towards mathematics to be with her in senior lab of physics till third year. Not only theoretical portion, I would have recited up entire practical data, just to spread smile in her life. I asked myself, would time favor me if I had expressed my feelings for her much earlier? I hadn’t expressed all these perhaps because of high chance of getting denied. Moreover, Anamika was always in my mind who had sacrificed herself just to let me find my destination. I was not ready to regret those moments of starring at Neha, still it looked like I had lots of question to ask with Creator of heaven. “Moments we lost can never be restored and it’s the law of nature” and I know I must accept this condition.

I finally realized that the circuit link I found in physics lab was just an illogical circuit which had no any valid connection. However and whatever we may try of linking any two different moments of our life, the final call has to be made by destiny itself. And not the least, we miss something special on our life just after we realized, they can never be ours.

Regarding Neha, I shall try not exposing all these with you till my last breath, but because your presence disturbs me so much, I just wish , we never meet again…..

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