Because my parents have gone to Nepal for visit, I am alone in my room on these days and I once again had to hurried towards my college...

i was being late today too...

After my practical class got finished on 9.30 am, I heard that after one hour there will be speech competition program organized by Economics department. my inner heart expressed desire of being participant of the program, so I went in common staff room to register my name. And I also asked what are the topics? she had shown me few of them and I choose the very simplest one, "Farmer's suicide, its causes and cure..."

I was going to participate in any speech competition after the long 5 years gap in my life. Though I was never a frequent winner in my life, but one of the moments which I never want to forget is moments of class 11 in Asian college in Kathmandu, where my philosophy speech on "life, its different stages and our understanding" had given me a huge success I had ever meet in my life.. In that program there were no any first or second categorize, but only "Best among all" and among the best awards in different eight categories, I had bagged "Seven best awards" in the entire college.

WOW.. this always makes me feel proud of me myself...

But, this time the situation was completely different, Frankly expressing, I was in doubt whether I can speak English or not? because in some of the latest conversation with few teachers, I always felt good to use Hindi. I was afraid and my heart was once again beating very fast...

Even I didnt had a good points on these topic, Thanks to God that I remebered MS on that time and I got immediate reply of my Post from sister Sam, brother deepak, brother paulose, brother Jams, brother harry and khalid uncle. Thank you everyone...

your people points made me feel some relief, and I started to prepare the speech with 15 minutes left of my turn to come...

Heart beat growing faster and faster, I wanted to drink water, but not found anywhere...

Before my speech, my class mate Vishal delivered the speech, and because he is scholar in every of the field, he had a confidence of his win too..

Vishal delivered his speech, but he was not following the normal rule. Even after the time over of 5 minutes, he continued speaking for next 5 minutes.. though his speech was really good, but I thought he will not win because he didnt respected the time.

i prayed a short prayer asking my god to help me, and so as usual he was always for me to say, "dont worry Suraj"

then came my turn.

as I forwarded myself to deliver, I got such a great confidence, and I start delivering the speech on my own unique way. I was success in attracting the attention of every audience and judge. But, in this duration when I saw face of some of the probable winner participants, they were really sad in listening my speech as if they have already surrendered their loss.. And as my speech got conclude, I was given respect of clapping of huge frequency, this felt me as if I have just won a very special award in my life.. Truly, that moment was a very very special, and it shall always be special...

After short moments, winner was announced.

Third winner was not me............

second winner was my friend vishal...

and I was happy that he got a prize... I was really happy..

and then first one.... I wish I had my name on this category...

finally the first was announced, and my heart silently said me.

"better luck next time suraj"

i said "its ok... I am already won the day on many way, and this is the day from where I shall start to win again in my life..."

That stage might had added another physical loss in my life, but I was myself happy on me, and I was truly happy from inner heart because I was the best in attracting audience attention, I was truly honoured by the biggest clap, and I won because my heart was satisfied on my performance.......

thanks to my lord too....

thanks to sister Sam, brother deepak, brother paulose, brother Jams, brother harry and khalid uncle.

thank you mouthshut...

Regards

suraj