I don’t know, is it me only or everybody feel stuck in life at some point of time and wonder many times, why He/She is there in this world. Is waking up in the morning, start the grind-mill of earning money, sleep in the evening and little useless chatting in-between is the purpose of life? I know, many will not agree and stop reading it further. Many enjoy the life as long as there mind is busy and active in socializing, whether they have something constructive to do or contribute to society.
Growing up is not an easy phenomena. Blissful childhood is gone, colourful youth is fading, now comes the time of putting ur head in the lion cage. I mean getting marrried, have kids, adjusting ur values and compromising on issues for the peaceful life and making others happy. Parenets are getting old, responsibilities are increasing manyfolds, you have to abondon many hobbies, company of your favourite near and dear ones to be a part of the rut-mill. I believe this is the toughest part of life may be tougher than facing the old age.
You observe so much poverty, illetracy, sufferings and sorrows around. You want to do something for them but don’t know from where to start. Also, you are too busy in looking after your family and solving confrontations of your wife and mothert that you have no other option but turn a blind eye towards them. But the sword of selfishness does not let you breath freely. At night many time you wake knowing that you are stepping back from the promises you made.
You keep on thinking that someday you will do something for the street children, work for downtrodden, open a night school for slum children and keep giving you false consolations that you are not avoiding the social responsibilty, but just taking some more time. You compensate it with visiting some old age home or mother teressa home and donating old clothes, and may be 100 Rs. without realizing that what is useless for you, how can it be useful for others. After doing it, you want to feel secure and responsible to society, but fails in your own conscience. Suddenly you realize that not much healthy life is left with you. Becasue it is a fact that when you look back, a ten year old incident will seem to happen only yesterday. Just try to remember how many years have passed the death of Lady Diana. Ten years, but seem to happen only last year. But when you look at the future life, it feels you have so many years to live, so you can do this or that any time later. But life slips so fast that you are able to see its ears or tail only.
We become money grubber with time with no sense of balance. We keep accumulating money without any realization. We buy 100 Rs. set of glitter pens to our child without a second thought, but think may times and finally refuses when’kaam wali’ asks for a raise of 50 Rs. in a month, after working of 250 Rs. per month for the last two years or more. SO much imbalance is surely the cause of poverty among so many and also cause of unhappiness among us because sub-consciously we are aware, what is wrong and what is right.
We keep growing biologicaly and physically without growing emotionally and remaing a child within. That becomes cause of many ego problems. Just a scratch on ego can turn an old man into a youthful warrior. Our insecurities rise with age making us more vulnerable to ego attacks. You know ur faults but not able to mend.
And in the whole tussle life passes meaningless. We saw it passed in front of our eyes and were not able to make anything out of it. Not even a moment to remember or cherish. One more selfish life coming to an end.
Is this the way to live? Hats off to people who know how to control their lives. Many remain in the periphery of reading self improvement books without any improvement and keep suffering.
I wish somebody can explain the art of living. May be not, because it is a lonely journey and the one himsef/herself need to dive into deep waters to get the pearls out.
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