I am aching to go back to India. I like USA as well, easy work, no hassles, clean and uncomplicated life. But I will never have the life I had in India. I want to give my kids a big family with grandparents, uncles, aunts and cousins. I am not concerned about my life .
I am only thinking about kids. I have 2 daughters. But I am also scared of life in India - crime, communal riots, bombs, poverty crimes, comparatively harsh life, very unhygienic conditions, harsh city life, harsh professional life, total disregard of human values, crime against women, deteriorating society. At the same time, I am very conscious of hate crimes in USA, psychotic killings, high cost of living, expensive education, medical - and I don’t even trust the doctors here.
I want to give my kids a good life - I am not even aiming for best - just good - becausse I know there is nothing perfect. Maids, family and easier cultural adjustments in India are a plus. And I am conscious that even though USA is extremely tolerant of immigrants, our skin color will still tell us apart, not to mention that I am not American enough to make my kids really fit-in .
I am torn bad - what should I do?