I am not sure but this book also known as ’’Journey to the Heart’’ . or talks on Sufism.
Through ten unique talks, based on Sufi stories, Osho offers deceptively simple lessons on how to die to the ego, and how to be reborn to Life. He speaks about the importance of meditation, the difference between knowledge and wisdom, the beauty of sadness ? and about Love, as the true transformational force.
OSHO:
’’Keep the message in your heart: Nothing can you have from me until you die.
This is the whole message of the Sufi path: Die!
Die as you are so that you can become that which you really are. Die to the ego so that the Divine can be born in you. Die to the past so that you become open to the future. Die to the known so the unknown can penetrate in you. Die to the mind so the heart can start throbbing again, so that you can rediscover your own heart which you have lost completely.
You don’t know what heart is! The throbbing that you hear is not the real heart; it is just the body part of the heart. There is a soul part to it, hidden behind it. These heartbeats are from the body part of the heart. In these beats, or between these beats, in the gaps, is the real beat of the real heart - the soul part. This is the matter part. You have completely lost contact with the divine part of your heart. You live a loveless life, a heartless life.
You are like hard rocks. Even rocks are not so hard. They can be broken - and I say this with long and great experience. When I try to break your rock, it is very difficult, because your rock tries to protect itself in every way.
You try to protect your diseases, your illnesses. You try to protect your neurosis, your madness - because that’s what you are identified with. You think you are that. You are not.
Until you die, you will never know who you are.
Right now you can sit in a yoga posture and repeat the mantra of Maharshi Raman, `Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?’ - you will not know. That mantra will be just in the mind. Raman knew through it - he passed through death. It happened when he was seventeen years of age. He was meditating continuously from his very childhood, must have carried the urge from the past lives.
He was not like an ordinary child, not interested in this world from the very beginning. Whenever he had the opportunity he was waiting, and with closed eyes, moving into silence and deeper silence. Suddenly, when he was seventeen years of age, suddenly in meditation he felt that he was going to die. And when you are in a deep meditation and you feel that you are going to die, it is not just a feeling or a vagrant thought - it grips you in your totality, because there is no thought to fight with it. You cannot argue. It is so self evident in a silent mind that you are going to die.
And it comes to every meditator - and blessed are those to whom it comes.
Suddenly he felt that he was going to die - and nothing can be done: death is absolutely certain. So what to do? He was sitting under a tree. He lay down, ready to die. Accepted. Relaxed his body. No struggle with death. And he found, by and by, that the body had become cold. It was a dead corpse. Even if he had wanted to move his hand he couldn’t have. The contact with the body was lost. Then he felt the mind disappearing, like when water evaporates. And soon there was no mind. The contact with the mind was lost.
Then he waited and waited and waited - when will death happen? And it never happened. He had come to the deathless. But this is a totally new man. The old man is there no more. The son to some father and to some mother is there no more. It is Raman no more. Suddenly Raman has disappeared. A Bhagwan is born: he has become divine.
When you reach to the bottom-most core of your being, the deathless, you are God. God means nothing else - God means the immortal, the deathless!
`NOTHING CAN YOU HAVE FROM ME, ’ REPLIED THE GENEROUS MAN, `UNTIL YOU DIE.’
And nothing can you have from me either, until you die.
And nothing can you have from God either, until you die.
In fact, until you die, you live a death, you live dead. Your life is nothing but a slow suicide - spread over seventy, eighty years, but a slow suicide, a slow death. From the very moment you are born, you are dying and dying and dying.
Until you die, you will live a dead life. And if you are courageous and you can take the jump into death, suddenly, for the first time, life dawns upon you. For the first time, the deathless dances within you. For the first time, what Jesus calls life abundant - you overflow with it! Now you are no more a tiny stream in the summer, just somehow pulling together, with vast sand all around, desert. You become a flooded Ganges in the rains: overflowing, broken all bonds, broken all limitations - life abundant.
But that never happens until you die.
So this is the paradox.
Excerpt from: Osho, Journey to the Heart