I've been blessed to have a safe and secured life. What I love about being a human being is that we love contradictions. If I am in a difficult situation, I crave for an easy one. But, the same is true for the other way round. Being in an easy way of life, I want to take enough risks to make things difficult or challenging. We love challenges. If everything is going okay, we challenge ourselves to land into trouble. I believe that's how we learn. If we don't take enough risks, we become stagnant.

But, sometimes, we come across situations, where we are left on our own to take decisions which can affect our entire life! And, I realize that, sometimes, its so difficult to take such decisions. People who take the right decision, have nothing to explain to anyone. But, for those who make a decision and things go wrong, have to face terrifying consequences.

I happened to be in a situation where, my decision would tear apart a series of relationships. And, here I am unable to take the decision of life and death.

For the right decision calls for an easy life. But, the other decision calls for a disaster for many. It would also mean ruining years full of emotions and trust. But, then I am a human being. If, I believe that the other decision is right, I want to challenge myself for the disaster. But, then there's another decision pending: Is all this worth it? And more decisions need to be taken based on what I decide. It's exciting, challenging, fearful, disastrous, wonderful, and its a mix of all kind of emotions - to take this decision of life and death.

And, I was taught to be the decision maker. The choice is mine. The consequences would follow. Again the choice on that consequence is mine. Again a new consequence would follow. But the only thing is that if I am satisfied by the consequence, I increase my expectation from the next choice. And if I am unhappy with the consequence, I make an improved choice by learning through the past mistakes.

But, sometimes, I really wonder. Why we humans are like this. And also, why not?